~~~if i could turn back the time.......~~~

there's sumthing i want to change the most....
if i knew that he's going to leave me and my family that time...
i wouldn't leave him alone...
i'm missing him now...
it's been a long time i didn't feel like this...
he was the person that always encouraged me to study...
i still remember how painful is his punishment when i didn't perform in my exam...
that's why i'm myself now...
ABAH...
i dreamt of him last night...
if i could stopped him from going to work that day...
if i could kissed him many times...
if i could visit him when he was in hospital...
if i could be by his site at his last moment...
if i could turn back the time...

i won't leave him even a minute....
i miss u abah....
i miss u..........
my eng sucks when he leave me..
i have nobody to help me with my eng...
it just me and all my teachers...
after all, my previous teacher doesnt help me so much..they only intrested on guys (since my teachers mostly are woman)...
i dont care so much on my eng...
until i found a new environment that changed my mindset towards eng teachers...
here i found it...KMB...
teachers here belong to everyone...
no difference...
especially to gurls where they found have low self-esteem to expose in public...
well, thanks teachers!!
i'm glad that i went to eng camp...
the best camp ever...
even amal islami cannot challanged it (coz 'he' was there)...
love u techers!!!
sweet butterfly need to fly somewhere else someday.. it's all because of u guys!!!
cOOL beB!!

we were a good fren.....

a few weeks ago...i was very close with her...suddenly, just because of one incident i started to feel uneasy with her...there was a nite of celebration... a birthday party to all NOVEMBER classmates...i supposed to be celebrated also...i text my class rep to inform everyone about the party...when i was typing that msg, i was in hurry... so, i didn't notice that i made a mistake...i wrote that the party will started after isya' prayer...(since now isya' prayer started earlier, she expect that the party will started on 8.30)...but, as i very well-known with boys in my class i expect that 'after isya' means at 9.00 pm.. so i just take it like usual..go to my class at 9.00pm...suddenly, when i walked near the concourse (the place that people usually sit to discuss) she come to me and gave me a horrible look...she didn't looks like a fren i know...and even worse, she yelled to me..in front of some people...but still in public...just because i came late...she waited for me and the birthday girls for half an hour...but the matter is that why must she yell to me...why don't she ask me nicely..the last time before i went back home, she was very nice to me...how could she do that to me...in my birthday party...seems like nothing important... the next day, i go to class like nothing happened.. i treat her nicely.. she don't even apologize to me...never mind, maybe she still thought that she's right...never mind la... gtg...this post will be continued....promise...

i am dying....

many people said that they are pressure with the workload...
students got thousands of works to do...
it seems like everybody have so much things to do..
then how can still people got time to play around with their frens...
clubbing and shopping...
i also not excluded with this situation..
i am a student...
this is my final year in my preparation to oversea..
hopefully aussie...
i met someone in my early time here..
he such a nice guy...
protective, smart , tough and cold...
i was not in love with him at a first site...
but, as time goes on and we were required to cooperate many times, my love to him sparkling like a shining stars...
behind his coldness, he such a romantic guy..
i was in love with him after my besday..
he gave such a precious memory of my birthday...
when i tell my frens about him, there were unbelieved with the facts that he is a romantic guy...
but....only i know how gud he is....
in his words and also..............