.....family first.....

diz weekend, i went back to break fasting wit my big family....
everybody went back...
so hepy...
its been so long i met my cute little cousin,baby...
she becomes more naughty...
i was too tired to entertain her...
i was on the phone wit sum0ne, so i gave her d phone,
then she asked.."sape kat sana tu??"
then dat sum0ne replied.."hohohoho...hantu di sini..."
then she said..."ok,bye!!"
she return the phone back to me...
diz is she....
no matter how naughty she is...
she's so afraid of 'hantu'...
then i scolded dat sum0ne 4 making jokes on it...

even lots of pple was there,
i felt lost...
i felt alone...
i missed my family a lot...
this is first time i gathered wit my family after i got IB result...
quite disappointed...
i supposed to b at ausie rite now...
but my fate...
nobody knows...
umi said..."it's ok to stusy local..."
she's too supportive...
i love her...
so, no matter wut happen...
i'll love my family...
dat's wont change...
family first...

sahabat, teman atau kekasih??

td aku wat quiz kat facebook...
smbil tu aku pun on d phone wit sumone...
bingung jugak kepala ni kdg2...
memikirkan soal lelaki...
hahaha...(sounds cliche,isnt it??)
tp tu la dilema pmpn melayu sbnrnye...
x caye??
g kat tepi jln...
kat ats divider...
msti de kumpulan laki y duduk bertenggek kat ats divider tu...
sikit lg ble de awek lalu, msti kena usha...
kalo pmpn tu muka mcm x brape laku pun sure kena ayat jgk r...
confirm...
tp tu x la rumit sgt...
nak wat camne...
laki melayu mmg ramah tamah orgnye...
aku trime hakikat tu...
tp mslh aku ni...
unexpected...

pas sorang, sorang...
aku ni x de la jahat sgt smpai nak str8 rejek org...
tp x de la nak ckp aku melayan sume laki...
pd aku, frens are forever..
so, bek kwn dr cple2 nih...
ntah r...
serabut gak kdg2...
but diz is life kan...

at d same time, i realize dat, i'd gave my heart to sumbody...
where it'll b hard to replace...
mgkin jodoh aku je y bley replace my feelings towards him...
he's unexpected...
but, he never makes me cry...
die slalu pinjamkan bahu die ble aku sedeyh...
it started w fren...
then, love comes slowly...
aku pnh tnye kwn2 aku...
aku dgn die seswai ke x..
dorg sume t'kejut sbb dorg nmpk ktrg ni kamceng gler...
x sangke bley move to next stage...
yeah, diz is life...
u'll never expect the unexpected...
tp ntahla...
dah aku ske die...
sbb tu aku x brani nak jnji dgn sape2...
4 thun ke, 10 thn ke...
sume tu aku serahkan kat takdir...
lgpun aku b'pegang dgn prinsip...
janji manusia x bley dipercayai...(walupun x sume org mcm tu)
who knows wut will happen in future??
so, leave it to The Most Gracious..

diz Ramadhan,
aku sedar aku dah jauh terpesong...
aku sedar aku dah byk wat silap...
slalu je terfikir kat otak aku...
ade ruang kemaafan ke utk aku...
mcm mane kalo aku mati jap lg...
sempat ke aku nak bertaubat??
aku cuma mampu berdoa...

semoga Allah buka pintu hati aku utk berubah...

...heppy wit sumbody...

...love comes around goes around...
this is wut written on my shirt...
i bought d shirt coz d stain on my shirt when i was eating claypot mee wit my beloved cousin, angah!!
i dunnow why i chose diz shirt...
there's 3 loves on d shirt...
accidentally on dat time i have 3 love problems...
hehe...
shhh....diz is d secret i never tell...

lots of things happened diz last few weeks...
he comes, he goes, he comes, he disappear...
who i want actually?
only one...
him....

but he likes to 'play' wit me...

sumtimes he's too close till i couldn't find a space between us..
but another time he dont even there wit me...
we've been spending few days together..
i know who i want...

there's other story behind dat...
how suffer sumbody bcoz of love...
makes me set a new rule...
to those who willing to b wit me, u must not love me too much... coz i hate to hurt others...
a reminder to me too...
shudn't too close wit anybody...
life's more important than love...

...u cant turn back the time...

well....
easy .... forgive and forgot...
just like pc...u delete those items that no longer useful...
save items that beneficial rather than useless...
but...
life is not like that...
u cant simply just erase the errors...
but u have to keep it all ur life...

no matter what....
u have to bring it anywhere
coz this is ur life...
u cant choose what u want in future...
but u can decide the best way for u in future...

so, what's the conclusion of all these thing??
i decided to forgive coz it doesnt matter for me on what ppl think bout me...
this is me...
i know myself better than anyone else...
thanks to my bestfren...
understanding and always there when needed...

...shudnt expect more...

This is the decision I've made..so, the consequences is on me…I'm glad that at least I have this laptop to accompany me everytime I'm sad…hmm…this is the price that I have to pay for the sins I've done…

O God, The Almighty God, please forgive me and all my sins… I am the ungrateful slave and always make mistakes.. I hope that the is still a forgiveness and a guide from you so that I wont make mistakes and sins again… please, protect me and all my family members, friends, and those who loving me… please strengthen the bond between us.. Never separate us except death.. O God, The Almighty God… I hope that this time, I made a right decision.. Please show me the light to the best thing… protect me and always love me… I want to love you till the end of my life…

Relationship between guys and girl are hardly to explain.. Even you might thing there's no wrong for both sexes to be friend… but deep inside their heart, there is something hidden that only can be revealed by themselves.. They believe in love.. So they have to respect their feelings…

How does a word 'commitment' might kill many peoples??
1st- it happen when you love somebody but you don’t want to lose them one day because you afraid of giving a commitment…
2nd- the one that you love can't give the same like what you gave to them in your relationship..
3rd- waiting for a right time when your partner are willing to give a commitment to relationship..
4th- you cant control your partner behaviors especially when they are actually running away from the facts that you're leaving….

Then, one fine day…you'll find somebody who deserved you better..then, when that time comes, please never say 'no' coz that person is yours!!!

...this is true.....

haha...
there's never comes to my mind that my life would change 360 dgree rite after result published...
i've changed a lot...
i've become more stronger...more dependent, more brave...risk taker, more confident...
this is where i belong to...
the place where i put my heart into it...
this is what i really want...
never comes to my mind that i would quit engineering...
those who still dunnow this will shock...
dey'll even more shock when dey know dat im taking journalism rite now...
my passion since i'm a talkative...
i think this would be the best choice
to those who still confuse on why i changed dont think so hard bout this...
the answer is this...
life must go on...
once u fall, stand up and be tougher so dat if u fall again, it wont be hurt....


not just dat....
lots of things changed....
my environment...
but u know, thing dat i really miss is my old frens....
kmb still the best...
all those experiences that i gained in kmb wont b easily forgotten...
u guys the best...
inform me when u guys are leaving...
i'll try my best to be there to say 'gudbye'...